purplesmile's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- health, cleaning and gnocchi Can I say, just one more time, how complicated life is? Still waiting to find out mom’s biopsy results, which is always hard. Now she has an upper respiratory infection and feels shitty. Dad’s been in and out of arrhythmias all week. I’m not sure I ever wrote about when he was in the hospital over ten years ago. Not sure I ever will. But the arrhythmias are terrifying and bring back awful memories. There’s a distinct smell during the summer in our upstairs. I can’t explain, I suppose it’s warm air and dust and sun and remnants of my mother’s perfume. But it smells like summers when I was little. The smell, combined with my dad’s hard breathing takes me to a place I don’t care to remember. He finally went to the doctor today. His heart is working too hard. His heart doesn’t work right. I can’t bear the thought of losing him. The doctor didn’t put him in the hospital, thankfully, but adjusted his heart medication and said to come back in a week. Such scary stuff. Congestive heart failure. I compensated by cleaning today. I’m tired of the worrying. So I got down on my knees and SCRUBBED the kitchen floor. I’m not sure anyone can understand how nasty the kitchen floor in our house gets. My mother works full time, and does what she can, but cleaning the floor is a huge task. Not mention that currently her mobility is pretty limited. Dad definitely can’t do it. My sister gets migraines from the cleaning solution, and my brother is just never made to do much work. So. I probably couldn’t tell you when the floor was last clean. Christmas, maybe? Ew. But it is now. I also made gnocchi and sauce. Mmm. I have to go get bread to make garlic bread though. Then I need to start boiling the gnocchi. Icky and hot that process is. I also need to pick a wine to go with dinner. I guess I should go put on clothes to get to the store. Wife beater and sweatpants isn’t a look I care to sport in public. 6:01 p.m. - August 20, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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